(A reflection I wrote Monday, February 25th 2013 when we were going to meet our birth mom for the first time)
I walked down the steps this morning. Looking around my living room, dining room, my kitchen… thinking of the things that should belong there: a baby swing, bottles, baby toys and books.
Today is a great and terrifying day. Today could change everything. In my life I don’t think I’ve experienced a day that is so much great potential and is at the same time one of the most scary things I’ve ever done.
Today we meet the woman who could choose to place her baby with us.
I was feeling good and confident until about 12 hours before going to meet her and I started getting nervous. I picked out the clothes she was meet us in, hoping we would be dressy enough for her to know we think this meeting is important, but not too dressy she’d think we were pretentious. I wrapped her small gift of my chocolate chip cookies, made with love, and hoped she would like it and it wouldn’t make her feel uncomfortable.
I calm my fears this morning with praying while ironing Bryan’s shirt and scripture and journaling over hot chocolate. I know she’s nervous too… Maybe more so than we are. And although that makes me sad for her, it makes me feel a little bit better that we’re all nervous and we can just do our best.
And in case you’re just joining us, the meeting went well:) We didn’t know if it was just a “getting to know you thing” but we prayed we could get matched then or soon after and God answered our prayer- within about 15 minutes!!
We were so thrilled and on an excitement high afterwards. Graeter’s was next door ad we decided to go celebrate with ice cream! We got out of the car on a bright blue day and immediately Bryan exclaimed “We’re getting a baby!” Standing in the sunshine we embraced tight.
We spent the rest of the day celebrating. We drove to our parents’ house. We called our siblings. We swung by the high school on a whim to see if we could find Kim when she was coming out from school. (We found her! We told her our news and in the middle of the parking lot she dropped her trumpet, put her hands to her mouth and stopped traffic while crying for a few minutes. So fun!) We went out to get drinks and appetizers with my parents…. AND then they took us out to Mitchell’s to celebrate.
What a day!! That morning I could only dream that day would end the way it did. God has been so good to us and continues to be!!